RER the PORPOR

Saturday, December 15, 2007

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I never realise i have so many good friends around me.

Kent - who listened to me cry for a total of 40 minutes today.
Gavin - who came and pick me up almost immediately and brought us to mount faber and take cable car and chill at the bar.
Qiaozhen - who gave me kitkat chunky and stayed with us till 1am.
Shippy - who told me plenty of 大道理ever since last sunday. Always direct and hurting, but somehow right afterall.
KaiTai - who came all the way to my house to give me a bag of chocolates and my favourite buenos even though im not at home. I got the shock of my life when i saw them lying on my table when i reached home.
Filbert - who still cared and assured me he'll come and accompany me if i need him to.
Liang - who is still so worried that I would get drunk like the other day. and used that same old line "call me if anything".
Fairy - who made me laugh even though its just a few smses.
Socks - who cared and reminded me to look up at the ceiling. (but eyes too small)
Brother Heng - who asked me what happened and didnt laugh at me. 0.0

I took alot of photos while we're up in the cable car. The scenery is so beautiful.. but sadly, i didnt bring my camera along.. I had to use that lousy camera phone. ): We stepped into many nicely decorated places with loads of little light bulbs hanging down from trees. And then christmas songs are played ever so beautifully. wah! really got christmas mood! =DD and and while at the bar, fake snow rained from the top. (though its more like the snow was squirted out) but its still as beautiful what! Christmas come quick quick pleaseeeee. Oh yes, Gavin was so nice. He just got his bonus and he treated us that cable car ride and paid for the bill at the bar. Gavin is feeling richhh. =DD

I reached home at 1 plus am today. Daddy was somehow waiting for me.. His first sentence to me was "Xinyi, 你现在跟庆祥交往还一直乱乱跑，这样不好leh"

Daddy doesnt understand the situation. "爸！从来没有交往过，以后也不会"

god. Im being so not discreet. :/ but there's nothing to hide anyway. I just want everyone to know that there's nothing anymore AND you people can stop asking if im ok or not already. because I AM OK (:

Im sorry I havent been blogging for a few days. Im not like that usually. I blog daily. =x but.. you know.. 2 days ago i told your i 失恋already, but nobody believe. :/ chengkai didi, CAN YOU PLEASE BELIEVE NOW?

but im actually feeling better now that i've cried it all out. (: REALLY REALLY. but can your go organise the taipei trip? =X chang korkor PLEASE? i very steady one.. you organise, i go. dont ask me go ladies night can already. No matter how depress i also wont go clubbing and drinking le. hopefully.

and and and, gavin gavin.. hongkong how? ): i want go leh! ask more people to go?

): i realised this entry quite lengthy. but last last.

no matter what.. thanks for being so truthful even though I think you should have told me this long ago. you knew you're already feeling this way weeks ago, but i dont understand why you have to avoid and pretend nothing's wrong. i thought u dislike pretendence. you always scold me because i always choose to avoid. but it seems, you're the best at pretending, and avoiding everything, including me. but still, these 2 months have been a pleasure because i know at least there're some times when you truly cared. i've never regretted anything that had happened within these 2 months.. the only thing that i regret, is the start of this whole thing. I told you right from the start that we shouldnt have. but you insisted that i shouldnt push you away. now that i didnt, there's still no happy ending at all. im alright. really really alright (: I have plenty of friends around me who care for me from the past, till now. so i'll hopefully, forget everything and PRETEND nothing ever happen. rewind rewind.. hello qingxiang, i am xinyi. nice to meet you. 0.0! september 24th is gavin's birthday. FREE?

i told you im alright. (i think i sound like a retard)

i got a feeling when hongyu reads this entry, he'll sms me to assure me that he's there for me. :/ hehehehe. so thick skin i know. but dont sms me and tell me that can? i dont want to read anymore words of console. really really. =DD

i feel so grown up (:

ps (kent is damn fucked up. he despise cheena people. -.-)

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